No. 97 Everything Is Not Real? Kyley’s Existential Crisis
In their trippiest episode, Kyley revisit's the magic of of the mushroomless mushroom trip. Eva helps to unpack the chaos that broke Kyley's brain, and they walk away with a deeper understanding, and even a friendship with chaos.
I’m this episode, we discuss:
Is anything real? Wtf is reality, and how do we grapple with an awareness that we actually do not exist? (Told you it was trippy!)
Understanding paradox as the energy of life and expansion, versus Binary as the energy of control and death
The exquisite paradox of being both good and bad, how how we are always both
How our efforts to avoid being bad or monstrous exhaust and deplete us
The danger of putting Presence on a pedestal
Chaos has a bad f-cking rap and why it’s e-v-r-y-t-h-i-n-g
This conversation is like reaching to touch the infinite magic, and an attempt to hold gently that moment, like a bird in your hand. We are left with the sense that something had been given and taken away, as we are infinitely powerful and also completely insignificant. Ultimately this trippy convo brings a real sense of comfort for both Kyley and Eva, as much as two blobs, in a bigger blob can feel comfort.
“Nature is chaotic and there is an inherent order within it. It’s both of those things”
“Some people would say “Don’t call yourself that! That’s not self love” but to me it is the most loving thing to say and accept ‘I am all of these things.’”